A year and a half ago, I decided to try something different in my life and have a hobby that in the future it could help me to earn some extra money! Enjoying beautiful pictures on Pinterest with girls that being photographed in front of great landmarks and beautiful sights, I thought, “I could do that! What could go wrong?”
Due to my great amount of photo material from my travels, I thought I could try to become what we now call “Travel Blogger”!
Five days ago, I came back from beautiful Barcelona and it was a great experience! During my trip, however, I realized that I didn’t want to do this anymore. I just wanted to stop trying to be a Travel Blogger and just be a traveller. Believe me, they’re two completely different things and I’ll explain it to you below. So, the reasons were as follows:
❧ Regardless of how elegant my site or my articles could be, I won’t be able to improve their recognition and their popularity without the help of Social Media! Well, I don’t want to be subdued to them!
❧ I will also have to upload “on real time” posts of where I am, what I eat and make critique to everything constantly! Besides, as I’ve learned after an endless research, this is the most common way for companies to get in contact with you and ask you to promote their products and services! IF they ever do it! Well, I don’t want to make critique for a restaurant or its services or eating for my followers!
❧ I will have to build a profile, that of the “Traveler”, and try to show it in every single way. Well, I think it’s funny to show just a part of myself like I have an one-dimensional personality!
All the above reasons may seem simple and easy but they’re actually not at all! They will demand a lot of my personal time and a huge effort and I really have to do a lot of interesting things in my life!
Being a child of the 80’s generation who not having learned to live with a mobile phone on my hand all the time (regardless of how good I know to handle the technology), I find it extremely ridiculous to be in front of a breathtaking landmark and my only thought is to take an amazing picture of it (from the right viewing angle, with the right lighting, tags and captions). Or, even worse, to take a video of it and see the landmark through the screen of a device instead of staying there, in front of it, like a salt column, and watching it until my eyes are full of it. To let it feed my soul with what that landmark has to give me and let it evolve me and cultivate me!
All of you, who travel a lot, you may have realize an incredible fact: even the best photographer with the most sophisticated camera can not actually capture that feeling which hugs you when you stand in front of a huge symbol of History or Art. He can’t capture the same sense of a place as you have when you’re already there and you’re wandering around it!
For example, I’d seen so many wonderful photos of Sagrada Familia and I used to say, “It’s so beautiful!” Well, no, no, NO! It’s not just beautiful! This word is too poor to characterize this landmark! Because when Sagrada Familia suddenly stood in front of my eyes, the awe that caused me made me cry full of emotion and admiration. And I know that feeling! I felt it several times before, through my travels, and I don’t want to lose it. I don’t want to be deprived of it because of self-promotion or money, because this feeling, quite simply, is not evaluated with money!
So, this is me and this is the first time I expose my face. These photos taken by my partner, who preffered to capture my face when I saw Sagrada Familia for the first time instead of standing and see that great landmark like me. Look at my eyes! I’m sure that some of you can understand that sense when you can’t believe what your eyes see. But even so, the emotion that I felt, which could never be captured on the camera, is still mine and for ever inside me!
You see, my passion for traveling is unlimited and I want for myself all the experiences that I get from every single destination I visit! If I ever had been “chosen” to do something in my life, this is the writing! This is who I am and I never chose it, because I write since I was a little girl even if I couldn’t understand what I did or why. So, for me, traveling is directly related to writing, since it’s a huge source of inspiration and creation, but also a way to enrich my personality!
So, this Social Media trend almost tricked me! My biggest mistake was the most common mistake of all of us: we see the result of a beautiful picture but we forget to think of what is hiding behind it. We all want to be models and famous and now we have the power and the ability to do it. But we don’t realize that we’re all victims somehow, trying to feed our souls with temporary happiness and self-confirmation!
Therefore, no! I will stop this enormous effort for being a “Travel Blogger” before I even start it. I may take pictures like a maniac but I take them for myself: buildings that I can sketch in the future, alleys where I could put my characters and create a scene for a future book or flavors of local dishes that I just want to remember! But for me, there’s nothing more beautiful from seeing theses photos after few months and remember that sweet compliment from my boyfriend, when we were sitting in that restaurant, or our laughs for something really strange that we ordered to eat. All these pictures are cutten pieces of my past and valuable memories of me and the people I love. So, i don’t want to share them with strangers just to prove to them that I have fun! I don’t need to prove anything to anybody! That would be so wrong… so fake!
Perhaps, if I didn’t have much to do in my life, I would try more and I could devote myself to it. But I created my sites because I wanted to write as much as I could and I almost forgot that purpose! And until my stories are published or until I manage to overcome that artist’s block, these sites will somehow be a consolation to me, to continue writing about the things I love!
I refuse to become one of all those women and men who count likes, hearts (for God’s sake!) and followers in their profiles! And unfortunately, sometimes, only if you show of your face and your body you will be able to increase your site’s popularity! But I don’t need any confirmation of who I am and if I’m worth! I know who I am and I’ve learned to love everything on and in me! And, after all, as a writer, I don’t want to overshadow my art and its meaning with self-promotion!
Of course, I will continue to upload articles and I may create a column in my Site where I will mention some of my past travels (as a personal Travel Diary) but that’s all! And I’ll do it for me! Not for the money nor for the show! All I want is to live my life in authenticity! With passion and truth.. and I don’t give a shit if noone ever knows me! Because I still exist!
Thank you for your patience to read my thoughts! I’d like to read your opinion and it would be great to mention me some ideas to help me improve my site!
Have a wonderful day!